Thursday, June 28, 2007
7:53 PM
[A Day Of Disappointment]
Everyday is very the same day for me everyday.. My life is shut away from the world outside my doorsteps thankfully i have my friends to guide me along my life.. Whether in the past or present my friends are getting getting lesser each day.. And just todae i just lost another friend, a nice friend.. I guess no one will really care about its absence or not ba.. Anyways its just another story, to me i dont bother it much too..
Here comes the boring part.. Disappointed each and everyday.. rather then hoping, i rather give up.. With you or not life still have to go on, the sad part is you just destroyed the nice sand castle that we've built right before you go.. Guess theres no point holding back since nothing matters to you anymore..
I guess everything thing is gone and gone means it will never be back again, let us all pretend and pretend we shall.. Who shall be the pretenders and who shall be pretending? Its too vague.. too vague to see whats right and whats wrong.. I guess only the pretending will know the answer..
Well.. I dont even know what im writing too.. All ive know is whats done cant be undone and the solution is nothing except to pretend.. Let us all pretend that no ones is there, pretend you never knew anyone and pretend you are my friend which had already gone..
Maybe sometime you may think that " I had enough! Its time that im going to do something just for myself and myself alone!".. Doing things for yourself is right but doing it in the expense of hurting others is definately wrong.. To me wrong is wrong and right is right..
Eg: I dont have money i want money and i want it now! Do you kill people for money or you work for it?
Maybe it isnt right for anyone to reprimand people of thier mistakes but God made every one of us with one big brain and two ears so that we can hear what others sae and think about it.. One mouth is to talk less and ten fingers to type more! Anyways im sick of it and im giving up so dont bother to think about it coz no one will bother too..
*Trying to understand one person is hard but trying to understand a whole bunch of people is much much much harder.. Whatever you plan to do, never be a burden to others, never let others worry and never let people around you get hurt..
Till the end its still spare a thought fer others and stop being selfish..
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
12:14 AM
[Movies]
Skies dark and clouds are red, it shows signs of raining in the night.. The night tonight seems to be cooler than any other nights this month.. Roads were empty streets were bright, it just look the same every night..
Its been awhile ever since i stopped schooling, the world of An Zai is all about slacking and rotting.. Maybe An Zai isnt that zai anymore le.. Anyways lets cut the crappy shiat and get down to business LOLZ~..
Yep im downloading tons of movies and they are really really really nice.. Let me list some out..
The Rock
Face/Off
Gladiator
Forrest Gump (Inspiring movie)
Vanilla Sky
A beautiful mind (Inspiring Movie)
Casablanca (Monochrome movie)
Twister
Red Planet
Armageddon
Con Air
Titanic? (Cant remember much abt it though)
Black Hawk Down
Enemies At the Gate
Shallow Hal
Along Came Polly
WaterWorld
Far & Away
Jerry Maguire (Show me the money LOLZ~)
*AND MUCH MUCH MORE!!!
Okie lets stop around here coz its raining and i need to shut all the windows loLZ~..
Im telling you this is really going to be a very very very long blog muahahahahaha..
Movies are really one of the greatest invention that mankind had ever made.. With a good actor and a good script, it can really turn the globe upside down!! We can too learn alot from movies and they are also influencial as well.. Just simply Amazing!
Had a thought while im smoking and trying to phase into words but it took a little longer then i thought loLZ~..
Thoughts:
In Life theres bound to be choice to be made.. Some choices are just straight forward such as a yes or a no. But once in a while there will be a major decision to be made, a deadly choice that could affect ones life.. When that time comes what will you do? Lets put it into an example..
If one fine day 2 person comes into your life and they are both very important to you and yes both love you just as much.. Although there are differences between them but the love they show you are just as heavy.. Then so coincidently they happen to know their rivals exist and there comes the choice of your life, a deadly choice that could change one life or another.. Who will you choose? At this point of time you are definately confuse.. The love they shows are the same you can feel it, so it will have to be base on characteristics and one is naughty and the other is good.. They both have their own way of living and style and you like the both of them as the way they are.. But you just cant have the good of both worlds..
Eventually or maybe you will come to a conclusion of a 'third' choice.. The choice of not choosing either one of them... It may sound nice but can you resist the temptation IF one of them care for you everydae? Knock on yer door just to ask you whether you had yer lunch or just to check up on you.. Will you still hold on to your 'third' choice? The answer is of coz you will choose the nicer one right? Who cares about the third choice when the right choice is in front of you.. Yes you will feel bad and sorry for the naughty one and theres just something going on in yer heart which you just cant bear to part with but......... So in the end a choice had been made.. Its just like two big red juicy fuji apples, one is just right besides you while the other is on the table.. Will you reach out fer the nearer one or take a walk to the apple on the table? There you go, the choice had just been made..
In the huge vast of life there bound to be choices like this one, above all it just comes down to people themselves, as who can really do things for others without thinking about themselves?.. *Sigh* the world is just too selfish ba and the saddest thing is im one of them.. Its really farnie that i can compare major choices to a minor choice.. Im sure theres someone out there who does choose the third choice and really keep to his or hers decision and maybe choose something not advantageous to themself and they are the ones who does great things and im sure of it.. They do exist, believe it! For me i definately believe it, its just that i havent met those people yet.. If i do really meet these kind of people i hope that their benevolent acts of decision rubs off on me.. Peace Out~
Saturday, June 23, 2007
1:31 AM
[ Clear night sky ]
After days and hours of gaming finally took some time off and clear up whats suppose to be done ^.^.. Since i didnt blog fer a long time i decide to blog now.. loLZ~
Acutally i also dont know what to blog also.. These few daes havent gotten any real sleep dark circles getting darker and larger le..
Sianz.. Last nite i had a strange and scary dream.. Dreamt abt alone dont know where and found afew friends which i cant remember, then only think i can remember is the scene, scary dream about zombies and ghost around me.. Scary wor.. Dont know how come got this kind of dream..
Recently something caught me just before i sleep, and its a question and a sentence.. It goes like this..
"Theres alot of things i wanna tell and listen, somehow i feel that everything seems pointless now, cause the time had past so long that anyone could remember. Even theres a chance given, its still useless against time itself.."
Those words kept ringing in my ears every night before i fall asleep these daes.. Following on i had a crazy idea of what could ive done if i could go back in time..
Then the first stop will maybe 1965 ba.. Wannna see my mom and dad young face loLZ~.. Then it will be 1990 to see all my friends de face.. hehe.. Maybe at the final stop.. I will go to my life and save things that i will regret the most.. But on second thought i felt that its pointless as even you could save it once twice but could you save it forever? So lets just learn from our mistakes and try not to let it happen again ba..
*Seriously the same mistakes will definately occurs but its just so god damn hard to prevent it.. Thats why people keep making their same mistakes over and over again coz its just life and people do fall for it.. Maybe we should just learn keep learning from our mistakes and no more.. Even its the same mistake just keep learning and learning and repeating and repeating ba.. NiteZ
Thursday, June 14, 2007
1:56 PM
[ Faraway ]
After gu went off serving the country and suddenly i got alot of things to think abt.. Boring sia.. Todae weather is freaking burning and its like somewhere in the desert.. Now im downlaoding Diablo 2 to play.. I guess its nice to play game ba.. But the downloading i think it will take abt few daes ba.. At the mean time im rotting away and i can smell myself faraway.. LOLZ~
Its really time fer me to find a decent job liaoz.. But left 2 months nia find wad job ner? im really broke and bored.. Sianz..
I met a fortune teller yesterdae and he tell me to sleep 2 years then and when i wake up i will be rich.. mauahahahaahz.. Then i ask abt my future gf or wife and he sae thats a tough call, he sae she will be a someone with 2 moles on her face and in order to meet her i will have to sleep fer 20 years.. He also added that if i sleep 2 years wake up then my dream ger will be gone for good but if i sleep fer 20 years i get the ger but there goes my fortune..
Haiz.. What should i do ner? Should i sleep fer 20 years or 2 years near? Should i be rich ner? Should i gain happiness ner? Its really hard to choose sia.. Got to go bath liaoz buaiz
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
3:54 PM
[Bull-Shiart]
Todae weather gan pua hot although theres alot of clouds but its still so hot and sunny.. Sianz AnZai mood todae is really farking bad.. He gets irritated easily somehow its the weather and somehow its the attitude..
Angry sia.. Dad keep on ngiam the same thing over and over again..
"HUH!? NI YOU YAO CHU QU LIAOZ AR!! BU YAO CHU QU LE!" Sianz sia.. Hes been talking the same shiat whenever im going out.. Although im not going anywhere todae but it just ticks me off hearing hes words again.. Then i replied..
"Liew.. You everydae go out also like that, did i sae or complain anything? Since i didnt even sae anything then you dont complain to me la.. BU YAO GUAN WO LA!" Thats what i replied.. Not i bad or what ar.. Its becoz he very retarded.. I rarely ask him fer cash when going out and hes been going out since when im still an egg in moi mama stomach till now sia..
The worst thing is that he still got the cheek to tell me he go out only fer 2 hrs nia ma.. -.- wtf sia? He need to werk next dae lo.. i dare him same as me go out until 2am see he can tahan anot..
Liew if hes me im sure he also goes till very late de lo.. Cock sia.. But if im him i will not be so retarded to go out fer 2 freakin hours nia. Spending 2 hours outside i rather spend 2 hours watching tv at home lo.. WTF 2 hours outside can make you fly ar? Cock sia..
Sianz i hate it when he contribute the least and ngiam the most sia.. He rarely ask me you got money to go out ma? Enough anot? Remember to eat your dinner ar.. yea the rate of asking whether i have cash is = 1/365 coz he ask abt 1 time in a year nia ma..
Mom is a whole different story.. shes is from Earth not like dad from another galaxy de.. Dad dont communicate with me de.. Thats why hes like retarded like tt.. Sianz i hate to be like a dog like tt ask mom and from other galaxy de dad fer money sia.. Ke Lian de AnZai eat until 22 years old le still getting cash from mom.. Maybe i should go be a freakin gigglo ba.. Then i can be a fucker and a rich man which makes me a fucking rich man.. Sianz..
Haiz gu and long going into army tomorrow liaoz actually i dont know what to sae to them sia.. Coz im really bad in saying good byes.. But fer the both of them i will be mushy and i will sae..
"Gu and Long ar.. You two be careful ar~ remember to take in yer clothes when raining and remember to bring snake powder and take care ar.. Bon voyage.. Watch out fer the commando mosquitoes there.. They gan power de.."
And i will be seeing you 2 two months later.. See yer all!!
Saturday, June 09, 2007
1:09 PM
[Bored]
Boring and lifeless, everydae is just another day of looking forward to tomorrow fer me and tomorrow is another dae of looking forward to another tomorrow and again and again.. Todae's weather is hot, the sun look fierce wor.. average clouding ba.. Just came home from market.. Market todae is good ba and happens to hear something bad when my aunt came back this morning..
Life can be so unfair and yet you cant do anything but to try and fix everything on the way.. My father's smallest brother (uncle Q) have a son. In fact he has 2 sons.. Son A is the biggest and son B is the smallest.. Son A is intelligent while son B is not.. Son A has IQ and lack of EQ but Son B is full of EQ but lack of IQ.. But Auntie Q likes Son A more then Son B and Uncle Q is like a sandwich squash in the middle.. Why they like Son A and not Son B? Its becoz Son A likes to study and hes clever.. Son B is not quite into studies but he does well in sports mostly bowling..
Son A is really rude and lacks of respect fer others.. Example Son A sees me he just call to my name and not with a kor kor in the back coz im older and i dont bother.. Son B is exactly the opposite.. Haiz.. What ive heard from Son B godmother is that Auntie Q keeps telling Son B to do all the household chores like changing of bedsheets, cleaning the floor and all those 'archipalia' things.. Its almost like another Cinderella Story sia.. Haiz.. Just because Son B wasnt born to be intelligent and likes to do other things so he has to face this kind of judgement by his parents.. Is that right?
Fortunately Son B's godmother dotes Son B often brings him out and buy nice food for him.. BUT Auntie Q got somehow angry.. And saes to godmother
"If you wanna bring Son B go out you MUST bring along Son A if not Son B is not going out.."
You should have see godmother face when she heard those words sia..And i got agitated after hearing those bullshiart.. For yer info God mother is Uncle Q older sis.. Firstly its disrespectful.. Second its unreasonable, way too much le..
When Son B is not at home, Auntie Q and Uncle Q bought Son A out eat nice food buy nice things and when Son B is at home everything goes back the same as in Son A did nothing except sitting there like dua pek gong like tt while son B did all the sai kang.. Judgement for that Primary 6 kid, KNN how unfair can this be????.. Its just too unfair le..
Ive always hated Auntie Q but im just an open minded guy like my mom.. And i dont wanna spoil these kinship just becoz of something ridiculous.. So i just did what i normally do and respect her becoz shes and elder..
Somehow i started to think when all this happens.. Next week im bringing Son B out to eat and play bowling.. But if i do this does this means im too a bais? Or should i bring both out or should i just ask Son B to buy mac fer Son A?
For yer info Son B godmother is also my brother godmother.. Shes a really nice aunt i like her becoz she is really really really nice nice lady.. Last time when im Primary 6 i had attitude problem thats why last time all aunties hated me LoLZ~
My bro's godmother also did the same thing when hes young and my mom didnt even complain anything and instead she is very grateful to godmother that she can take care of my bro as everyone in the family is really busy.. Why cant Auntie Q do the same sia?
And OHHH~~~~~ i forgot that Auntie Q is from CHINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YES!!! Another chinna ger.. Haiz maybe that explains all ba.. As Jeremy always saes
"Yea yea.. Its in the blood, its in the blood.." LOLZ~
Im neither a saint nor im a charitable man.. I just feel like doing it and i just do it.. I told mom that dont force me one dae go debate and zhat until Auntie and Uncle Q chui tat lan ar.. Mom then scold me saying "This is other ppl family problem.. Who are you to tell them off?" then im like the one chui tat lan.. Haiz.. I know i sure can win the debate one lei.. Coz my fire inside me is strong sia..
On second thought they are my elders and its really their family business.. BUT WTF im just too buay song lei.. And the buay song in me is really stirring me up sia.. No no.. Yes yes.. i got idea liaoz i just need to let the Qs start to scold or start the debate with me first.. yes yes thats what im going to do.. Lets wait and see ba.. Yes Yes and WHEN they start the debate i make sure both of them jitao no face to face their children and of coz gan pua remorseful to what they did.. Yes yes thats what im going to do.. Im going to make them so buay tahan of me and start Que first.. Muahahahahahahahahaahahaz..
Please dont think of me as an evil person coz im not and neither im a good guy..*Wicked laugh* *Muahahahahahz* FIRST im not doing this fer anyone and of coz not fer myself and SECOND i dont gib a shiart what other ppl saes or think wor Coz i just do what i like to do.. Its true that i shouldnt meddle with other peeps probs but bo pian im Qs nephew and im born the way i am so too bad for them ba.. HehehehZ..
Weeeeeeeee.. Suddenly im not bored liaoz.. muahahahaahahaz
Sunday, June 03, 2007
2:59 AM
[ Happy Bdae to Ah Bird!! ]
Yes yes.. Ah bird grow old liaoz now she 21 years old le LOLZ~.. Just came back from ah bird bdae.. LOLZ~ Saw some of her friends nice nice.. But.. Dont know their names muahahahahahaz.. You wanna know why im blogging? coz my whole body sweating like pig.. Then waiting fer my body to dry LOLZ~
Yes yes its a nice place and i will definately be going there soon ba.. Drink coke loLZ~ trying not to drink alcohol liaoz.. LOLZ~ Something came to my attention and i gave it some thoughts after talking with Gu.. And that is ger and boy, man and woman are really very special animals or should i sae being..
Why i give it a thought lei? Coz i bored ma and i no gf also.. Somemore heard from ah long that hes kambateing pao chai.. Seeing him like that i gave a thought of myself unknowingly.. Somehow felt that everything that i told ah long is somehow wrong liaoz lei.. Coz doing what you dont usually do is not you liaoz rite? So why pretend to be someone you are not ner? Maybe someone out there in this wide wide world is just the one fer you AND its not what you thought to be but rather something that is more of a unexpected.. Does impression and communication that important ma? Guess got some sae yes and some sae no ba..
Why lei? Coz ppl who sae impression and communication are important most likely understand and impress their friends or partner ma.. LOLZ~
And ppl who sae no ner? Lets see if you can solve this..
Jimmy wear his outfits shabbily to meet his friends and (shabbily = go high class place wear slippers boxers and a shrunk mickey mouse t-shirt.. Definations of high class.. Hmmmm.. MOS, Pom night at grand hotels or wedding dinner at nice nice place)
AND didnt expect to know that theres females there...!!!! muahahahahaz
Then Jimmy dont know how to express and communicate well amongst others so how hes going to woo a ger he likes ner?
Info: Jimmy's closet [ 12 pairs of different colour and pattern boxers , 12 tiny and mini toons T-shirts including shrunk mickey mouse t-shirt, 3 pairs of slippers 1 of them is tat seng (tat seng = ppl who wear it to market de those blue straps white surface and black base slippers)
Info: Jimmy got the best player award for both DOTA and world cyer game tornament fer 5 years. He rules the net with hes powerful monkey-bird char.. Hes a poor 22 year old man with no job living in 1 room flat alone.. Yes no dad no mom no relative..
Info: Jimmy got pes A fer his army but he got problems.. He have an invisible friend which he like to talk to when theres no one you see.. Sometimes he likes to mumble to the wall and his best hobbies besides GAME is playing with his fingers while mumbling away silently and of coz talking to his invisible friend.. Yes yes no money how ner? Dont werry coz theres a good samitarian (hope spell correct) who sends him 500 bucks per month.. And of coz that good samitarian sends him the clothes everytime his clothes worn out CLOTHES = same thing as the closet..
Info: Jimmy needs to eat and drink.. And his common food is 6 cup noodles a dae with 2 big bottles of mineral water. And every dae he will spend 10 bucks on lan gaming including bus go and bus home. Every 2 weeks he will buy something fer his invisible friend which cost more then 5 bucks but less than 10 bucks..
NEWS: Jimmy likes a ger he found out that its his friend's friend's friend's friend's friend's de friend at a lan gaming center.. Shes one of the regulars there..
How he know ner? Actually ez sia his friend talk to him de but Jimmy only can speak 10 sentence a dae not including comma [,] So thats how he found out..
IF YOU WERE JIMMY WHAT WILL YOU DO? HOW CAN YOU HELP JIMMY? PLEASE POST SOLUTION AT THE TAG BOARD BA.. MORE MORE MORE TAGS thanks now i go bath liaoz